My soul, wait silently for God alone,

For my expectation is from Him.

6 

He only is my rock and my salvation;

He is my defense;

I shall not be moved

Psalm 62:5-6 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dy9nwe9_xzw

"The heavens proclaim the glory of God. The skies display his craftsmanship."
Psalm 19:1

misunderstood or maybe just mistaken,

but never sorry for that day.

When I let him go.

I fell to my knees and praying for peace.

To me he had to suffer for my mistake,

Deep somewhere under all those memories we made,

I knew he couldn't stay

Was it weakness or strength that made me turn away...

I can't wish away the pain, I am the only one to blame

Hearts crack before they break

Cracked by the weight of all the memories that told me he couldn't stay

Why look for value in a man who will never love you the right way.

I know now am not my own to just give away

Now I have to live with the pain

 and explain to others why he couldn't stay.

But take it from me sweet one 

Its worth the wait.

I now have peace about that dark day. 

Humbled I confess

who I am, I am that wretch

Down on my knees 

I say once more,

Be with me my blessed Lord

My brokenness I cannot hide

weaknesses become my greatest pride

now marked by you in all I do 

be glorified, Lord take my life

Your promises I don't deserve 

My value is now found in your infinite worth 

Draw me close, close to your side

nowhere else satisfies

Praise you, for my emptiness 

you know how long it took me to confess

My way is empty a vain pursuit

to put anything else before you

Here and now, everyday renew my sight

show me your way, I seek your light

You paid my debt with the greatest price

forevermore Lord use my life 

                                       No guilt in life, no fear in death,
                                                This is the power of Christ in me;
                                                From life's first cry to final breath.
                                                Jesus commands my destiny.
                                          No power of hell, no scheme of man,
                                                Can ever pluck me from His hand;
                                                Till He returns or calls me home,
                                                Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

obedience

If you know me at all you know I LOVE HISTORY. Seriously, it's so cool. A few years ago my family did the whole tourism thing in Washington DC.  I remember a one particularly beautiful exhibit; we put on the nerdy head phones and strolled around just reminiscing and learning about times past. I was in such awe of the well preserved beautiful relics. It was so surreal not the objects itself but what they had been through rich history oozed from them making the past almost tangible.

            After accepting the precious gift of grace, we now are a new creation. A creation with a purpose no longer our own, we exist solely for the glory of God. We are living exhibits of eternal love.  We are all living and walking displays of the power of the living God. This is why once we become a Christian we are called to a life of obedience, a life of holiness. We can not live recklessly guided by our ever changing emotions!  Obedience is an outward reflection of inward change. Jesus changed your life? Good, live it! Does your life look normal? Jesus didn’t die for us to live normally. Hear me out.  I am not saying sell all your possessions and move to a third world country…which is great if that's what you are called to do, but most of us just need to strive for a life continually growing in Jesus where we are planted. 

As a Christian, there will never be a point where you wake up and go shoot dang, I have arrived!! 
 I’ve made it with the most awesome job, the kids, the husband everything I want wow. How awesome this is the life. NOO this does not happen. Our hearts are always looking to worship something and if it isn’t Jesus it will be something. Ourselves, others, relationships, careers, people, family. It is a long obedience.

When we become saved there are four things our lives become.

A gift from the lord

A temptation to sin

A responsibility to the lord as His stewards

A threat to our identity in Christ .

Love is a gift and obedience is a reaction, an outward sign of inward change. Personally this concept took me longer than I’d care to admit to learn and honestly its still a huge work in progress.